Uh oh no!
I heard the tornado alarms broadcasting on the radio. A lulu of a storm was picking up strength, speed and lots of water as it made its way across Lake Michigan toward my house.
I immediately started praying for God’s protection. As I reached for my Bible to read from Psalms, I remembered I’d left it at church the night before. I taught two sessions of Bible Study every week – one on Monday night and one on Tuesday morning. That week, I’d left my Bible and workbook at church for the 11 hours between classes.
Wow, had that been a bad idea! Decades of sermon notes, lecture prompts and favorite passages were written in the margins and highlighted for reference and now it was at risk of being destroyed. I couldn’t bear it. I had to rescue that Bible!
The weatherman’s announcement was urgent as I considered my options.
“Take cover. The storm is due to hit our area in 27 minutes!”
I calculated the drive time and decided to make a run for it.
Rain pelted the windshield as I drove through the neighborhood streets into the church parking lot. I kept watch on the darkening sky as I fumbled for the keys to the church. Once inside, I RAN to my classroom, grabbed my Bible and tore back home arriving just in time to get to the basement with my Precious for company. Hot tears of relief rolled down my face as I hugged the fat book with the busted up cover.
That Bible has kept me company for decades of Sunday services and comforted me through the deaths of my two husbands and countless smaller trials. It has dispensed wisdom during the long years of parenting alone and pointed me to my Savior in times of despair and moments of temptation. God has made himself known to me in its pages.
Recently, the small print in my tattered volume had become increasingly difficult to read. Reluctantly, I invested in a super-giant-print Bible. In theory, my study time will be more enjoyable and references easier to find when I’m on stages teaching my discoveries to others.
New seasons can be scary.
But, can I tell you a secret? Just between us girls, I miss the familiarity of my old Bible with its notes and scribbles and and tear stained pages. Pretty as it is, I don’t like this new Bible with it’s clean pages and empty margins. The emotion that comes closest to describing this feeling is fear. Irrational. Ridiculous. Fear.
- What if I can’t find a reference cuz it’s not highlighted?
- Will God feel as close to me using this new Bible as He did with my old one?
- Should I copy all my notes into this new book?
Have you ever been forced into a new season? Maybe you’ve experienced a job change or your BFF moved away. Perhaps your doctor retired (the nerve!!) or your favorite dress got stained or a beloved pet died and you are feeling the loss as you navigate the unfamiliar without the benefit of your old comforter.
The truth is God is in the business of renewal. Sometimes, he has to move the old stuff out of the way so you are open to the new.
I’m depending on fresh insights as I use this new Bible. I’m taking a cue from Philippians 3:13-14 …Forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
I bossed my fear and wrote this on the dedication page in the front of my Bible
Begin a new era without fear
trusting and obeying God
What new thing is God doing in your life or asking you to let go of? Leave me a comment and let me know. I’d love to pray for your scary new season using my new Bible.
Verse for today: “Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? Isaiah 43:18-19a ESV
Prayer: God, change is hard. I cling to the old things that I know, the things that bring comfort even when you have something better for me. Lord, lead me to the best for my life. I know I can trust you to deliver the good stuff cuz you didn’t hold back your only Son from me. In Jesus Name, amen