I came face to face with my past this morning.
In an effort to purge items in my closet that didn’t fit my style anymore (or to be perfectly honest, didn’t fit my more generously padded frame anymore), I stumbled across two of my dead husband’s favorite shirts.
It stopped me in my tracks.
Even more than a photograph or nostalgic song on the radio, the sight and feel of them took me right back to a time when we were young and happy and bulletproof.
For years and years, I kept those shirts folded and tucked away because they reminded me of my Hot&Hunky Hubz who died in his sleep of a heart attack at the age of 39. I held onto them because a part of me couldn’t let go of that time when all was well.
Does that happen to you?
You’re cruising through your day, or your desk, or your drawers and you tumble back in time?
For me (this time) it was a great memory. But other times, I’ve stumbled into my dark past.
- A letter from an old lover.
- A long forgotten item of drug paraphernalia.
- A journal entry scribbled in hate.
- A souvenir from a clandestine meeting.
- A photo of the recklessly irresponsible girl I used to be.
And I thank God.
I thank God these things from my ugly past no longer represent who I am. For God’s mercy and patience and redemption. For fresh starts and new beginnings.
Remember God is in the business of restoration. No matter what your past includes, Jesus has already paid for it, and for that, you can be thankful.
Verse for today: Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. (1 Timothy 1:15-17 NIV)
Prayer: God, I thank you for your patience with me. Thank you for saving me now and forevermore. Continue to guide and lead me into the life you offer. A life that sustains me and inspires others. Amen.