What a week.
My 24 year old clothes dryer quit. Before I could make arrangements to fix or replace it, I found myself at the ER with Jake, who’d been in a motorcycle accident. My mama-drive was engaged, contending for pain relief and answers from the medical team and healing from heaven.
When he was finally released to heal at home, I slumped into a comfy corner of the couch, exhausted from sitting up all night at the hospital. My respite was interrupted by my mom’s ringtone.
“Robyn, I’m calling with bad news. Your dad died.”
“No! No! No!” I wailed, crumpling to the ground.
“I’m so sorry, Honey. He collapsed and couldn’t be revived.”
A flood of tears. That ugly hiccupy sobbing. Fist pounding sadness. I’m not ready. This shouldn’t be. He’s so active and healthy. I want more time. He’s gone and I can’t see him, talk to him, touch him anymore.
Loss of convenience, of control, and of connection.
When the tears slowed and my howling abated, Holy Spirit whispered peace into my heart. “This is painful, I know. Remember.”
Remember? Remember what?
- Stuff can be fixed and replaced. Focus on relationships.
- We are not in control, though we like to delude ourselves into believing we are.
- Death is not permanent. (I will see my dad again cuz a decade ago, he said yes to Jesus. He may have exhaled his last breath on earth but he inhaled the sweet fragrance of heaven.)
- God is with you and for you. He offers comfort and peace and security.
- Ask for help when you are weak. You need friends to pray for you, lift you up and feed your soul.
Preach the gospel to yourself
Life is alternately sweet and hard. We will make mistakes, suffer loss and experience big change. Jesus died to save us for eternity, and rose to give us hope in spite of any and all circumstances right now.
What’s up with you?
I don’t know what’s going on in your life right now. Perhaps you are at peace and in a season of rest or maybe the burden of fear or worry is heavy? Maybe you’re plagued with sickness and hardships or you’re wondering where the money will come from?
Know this friend. We need to preach the gospel to ourselves every day. Remember. Whether you are celebrating a triumph or suffering a loss, you are not alone and you are loved.
Blanketed by God’s peace
I am blessed to tell you, that when I preached the gospel to myself, peace fell like a warm fuzzy blanket. Comforting in the midst. When I called in reinforcements, my friends rallied with food, flowers and funds for airline tickets to fly to FL on short notice to be with my mom and pay my respects to my dad.
Preaching the gospel to myself reminded me I’m never alone or on my own. God is present in his Spirit and in his People. When you are under attack or overwhelmed by life or beside yourself with worry, remember to preach the gospel to yourself and usher in the peace of God and resources of heaven.
Verse for today: I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:18
Prayer: Lord, I am so sad. Be my buoyancy and my guide. Lord, in times like this I turn to you with my hands open in trust that you will fill me with courage, grace and love. In Jesus Name amen.